How I got into BDSM

When I was searching for porn online, abbreviation BDSM caught my attention. I checked it out and liked some.

Later I would check out BDSM together with some other more vanilla porn. BDSM was one of the staple fetishes of my porn search, together with stockings, garter belts, corsets, thongs, maid outfits (mostly lingerie types that I like on women)

Sometimes going near full BDSM and other times going near full vanilla.

I was somewhat hesitant of BDSM in certain periods.

However, idea of tied up helpless woman does appeal to me on a sexual level. So, I was getting to it more and more often. In the end of the day why choose between lingerie and BDSM when you can have a tied-up woman wearing lingerie.

Gradually I wanted to restrain and degrade woman more and more, so I stared looking at porn where they drink pee, wear panties on their head, lick floor or anting else dirty, eat shit even.

Another think I like is discipline, I always preferred well drilled and disciplined girls over wild ones. I will not watch a porn with girls who fight and resist, when the whole thing looks more like a brawl then a porn. Brawls and arguments are not what I want.

In contrast I like it when female is inanimate: either unconscious or just weak and frail.

There are few things in BDSM that always avoid. I never watch anything with male slaves in it. That is an absolute rule for me. Male slaves or male abuse give me some sort of PTSD or something like that. Not entirely sure why as I do not recall any particular traumatic event of that nature, may be my memories disappeared. Either way I feel very uncomfortable looking at guys in predicament. 

For me slaves must always be female.

Overtime I also started avoiding any porn with female dommies in it, particularly if they are really into the role. Cruel women are not my thing either.

That leaves me with just BDSM of male doms only and female slaves only. And no wild girls either, I want them pliant and docile.